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Amani Rakeia
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Приєднався 11 кві 2015
diaries of living alone in my twenty-somethings 🫶🏾
living alone diaries: the root of it all is your childhood trauma
at twenty-seven years old, a light bulb finally went off and I realized that the root of a lot of my current feelings of sadness, stagnation and even sometimes uncertainty in the choices I make for myself all trace back to my childhood.
i'm totally ready to free seven year old me from carrying the weight of the world and my emotions on her shoulders. so, here's to the journey of doing the work and healing my relationships with my mom, stepmom and dad. i deserve a life where I can fully breathe easy. here is where it begins.
anyways, i hope your week is going amazing! take care all ways, always. enjoy! xo ❣️
(make sure you watch in 4k, the quality is top tier 🤩)
links to some of my favs mentioned:
💖Warby Parker Glasses💖:
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💖Laptop Case💖:
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💖Oner Active Plum Brown Sweat Suit💖:
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💖Kitsch Satin-Lined Pink Shower Cap💖:
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💖Nike P-6000s💖:
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💖Shop Oner Active💖:
*get $10 off using this link: bit.ly/48c1AFB
💖Away Travel Luggage💖:
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💖Beats Solo Pros 2 Headphones💖:
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💖Aretha Franklin Now Vinyl💖:
go.shopmy.us/p-5404409
💖Green Gradient Sunglasses💖:
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💖Yellow Floral Skims Set💖:
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💖Marble Vase💖:
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💖Green Knit Short Set💖:
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💖Brown Maxi Dress💖:
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💖Matcha Latte Essentials💖:
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💖Neutral Bedding Decor💖:
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💖Bedding Decor (night stands, mirrors, etc.)💖:
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💖Parachute Robe and Slippers💖:
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💖Tea Kettle💖:
liketk.it/4BqeD
💖Away Travel Luggage💖:
liketk.it/4C5ZE
💖Shop My Office Decor💖:
bit.ly/3X9OIxm
Wall Art: smard.art/?dt_id=312334
*use code 'Amani' for 10% off
💖My Record Player Set-Up💖:
U-Turn Orbit Custom Record Player: go.shopmy.us/p-5071791
Marshall Stanmore Iii Bluetooth Wireless Speaker: go.shopmy.us/p-5071821
Bagnell Accent Cabinet: go.shopmy.us/p-5071830
Mia Metal Globe Lamp: go.shopmy.us/p-5071834
Metal 1.4'' H Wall Mounted Media Storage (Set of 6): go.shopmy.us/p-5071837
💖My Current Vinyl Collection💖:
shopmy.us/collections/537807
💖Shop My Skims Loungewear Collection💖:
shopmy.us/amanirakeia/loungewear
*If you don’t see something linked here, please check both my storefronts below:
✨Shop my Amazon Storefront: www.amazon.com/shop/amanirakeia?ref=ac_inf_tb_vh
✨Shop my LTK Shop: www.shopltk.com/explore/amanirakeia
Btw, this video is NOT sponsored, all opinions are my own.
let's connect on social ✨:
instagram: amanirakeia
tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@amanirakeia
enjoy my life moodboard on pinterest: www.pinterest.com/amanirakeia/
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vlog camera: Sony A7C
editing software: Final Cut Pro X
music selections: Soundcloud & Epidemic Sounds
#motivation #livingalone #healing
i'm totally ready to free seven year old me from carrying the weight of the world and my emotions on her shoulders. so, here's to the journey of doing the work and healing my relationships with my mom, stepmom and dad. i deserve a life where I can fully breathe easy. here is where it begins.
anyways, i hope your week is going amazing! take care all ways, always. enjoy! xo ❣️
(make sure you watch in 4k, the quality is top tier 🤩)
links to some of my favs mentioned:
💖Warby Parker Glasses💖:
liketk.it/4ljMQ
💖Laptop Case💖:
liketk.it/4tn0Q
💖Oner Active Plum Brown Sweat Suit💖:
bit.ly/48c1AFB
💖Kitsch Satin-Lined Pink Shower Cap💖:
liketk.it/4Jrih
💖Nike P-6000s💖:
liketk.it/4ilNn
💖Shop Oner Active💖:
*get $10 off using this link: bit.ly/48c1AFB
💖Away Travel Luggage💖:
liketk.it/4C5ZE
💖Beats Solo Pros 2 Headphones💖:
liketk.it/4Jrkh
💖Aretha Franklin Now Vinyl💖:
go.shopmy.us/p-5404409
💖Green Gradient Sunglasses💖:
liketk.it/4DAZx
💖Yellow Floral Skims Set💖:
liketk.it/4Jrlq
💖Marble Vase💖:
liketk.it/4Jrdy
💖Green Knit Short Set💖:
liketk.it/4Jrfo
💖Brown Maxi Dress💖:
liketk.it/4Jrfo
💖Matcha Latte Essentials💖:
liketk.it/43hI3
💖Neutral Bedding Decor💖:
liketk.it/4BqeD
💖Bedding Decor (night stands, mirrors, etc.)💖:
liketk.it/4uSjN
💖Parachute Robe and Slippers💖:
liketk.it/4Gc6Z
💖Tea Kettle💖:
liketk.it/4BqeD
💖Away Travel Luggage💖:
liketk.it/4C5ZE
💖Shop My Office Decor💖:
bit.ly/3X9OIxm
Wall Art: smard.art/?dt_id=312334
*use code 'Amani' for 10% off
💖My Record Player Set-Up💖:
U-Turn Orbit Custom Record Player: go.shopmy.us/p-5071791
Marshall Stanmore Iii Bluetooth Wireless Speaker: go.shopmy.us/p-5071821
Bagnell Accent Cabinet: go.shopmy.us/p-5071830
Mia Metal Globe Lamp: go.shopmy.us/p-5071834
Metal 1.4'' H Wall Mounted Media Storage (Set of 6): go.shopmy.us/p-5071837
💖My Current Vinyl Collection💖:
shopmy.us/collections/537807
💖Shop My Skims Loungewear Collection💖:
shopmy.us/amanirakeia/loungewear
*If you don’t see something linked here, please check both my storefronts below:
✨Shop my Amazon Storefront: www.amazon.com/shop/amanirakeia?ref=ac_inf_tb_vh
✨Shop my LTK Shop: www.shopltk.com/explore/amanirakeia
Btw, this video is NOT sponsored, all opinions are my own.
let's connect on social ✨:
instagram: amanirakeia
tiktok: www.tiktok.com/@amanirakeia
enjoy my life moodboard on pinterest: www.pinterest.com/amanirakeia/
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vlog camera: Sony A7C
editing software: Final Cut Pro X
music selections: Soundcloud & Epidemic Sounds
#motivation #livingalone #healing
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living alone diaries: for those struggling to find 'home'
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living alone diaries: disappear until you feel like yourself again
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hello? is this thing on? 👀 i know, i know. it's been far too long and i miss you all deeply, but i had to go ghost for myself and now? i feel *untouchable.* i am so, so happy to be back on your screen sharing this little life of mine. i have so much to say, but don't want to word vomit in the description here. i just hope that you enjoy the content and just catch up with me in the comments book...
living alone diaries: first time sober on girls trip, friends getting married, we're the new adults?
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we're in arizona! i had such an amazing girls trip this weekend celebrating my bestie girl for her bachelorette trip!! it's amazing to me how i've known her for over 10 years and it still shocks us that we're the new adults, soon to be married and having babies!! i was so nervous i wouldn't be able to upkeep my sobriety but truly, everyone was so supportive and inclusive. not once did i feel pr...
living alone diaries: venting on 6+ years of singleness and the lost art of self-pleasure
Переглядів 42 тис.4 місяці тому
hi boos 🫶🏾, i really wanted to open up the dialogue in exploring the rawness and honesty of what it looks like to fully embrace all of your singleness. what does that look like when you're not actively dating or engaging in casual encounters? what does it look like as a lover girl who loves to romanticize her own life, but isn't receiving romantic experiences from others in her life? anywho, we...
living alone diaries: the best matcha in atlanta, cooking protein pasta and staying disciplined
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hey boos, it's been a pretty good week over here. staying disciplined with my diet, hitting the gym regardless of my cycle making me feel moody and of course having lots of matcha! MoMo Cafe is hands down the best matcha cafe in all of Atlanta, don't let nobody tell you nothing different, okay! if you're not in atlanta and wanting to try matcha at a cafe, just ask for an iced matcha latte with ...
living alone diaries: slow, romantic nights like these remind me why i love living alone
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living alone diaries: slow, romantic nights like these remind me why i love living alone
living alone diaries: i spent another valentines day alone and made matcha chocolate strawberries
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living alone diaries: i spent another valentines day alone and made matcha chocolate strawberries
living alone diaries: practicing abstinence, one month alcohol-free and i've been glowing ever since
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living alone diaries: practicing abstinence, one month alcohol-free and i've been glowing ever since
living alone diaries: my desire for romance stopped me from enjoying my 20s. hello, happy girl era
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living alone diaries: my desire for romance stopped me from enjoying my 20s. hello, happy girl era
living alone diaries: i think i want to move to colorado? here's to a perfect new years trip alone
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living alone diaries: i think i want to move to colorado? here's to a perfect new years trip alone
living alone diaries: taking care of yourself while sick? refund me on this single life, please.
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living alone diaries: taking care of yourself while sick? refund me on this single life, please.
living alone diaries: taking small steps to find my light again, matcha oatnogg & decorating my tree
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living alone diaries: taking small steps to find my light again, matcha oatnogg & decorating my tree
living alone diaries: comforting loneliness when it arrives and late nights making lasagna soup
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living alone diaries: comforting loneliness when it arrives and late nights making lasagna soup
living alone diaries: no matter how great you are, the wrong man will humiliate you. life goes on
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living alone diaries: no matter how great you are, the wrong man will humiliate you. life goes on
living alone diaries: grinding in my 20's ended with addiction to stress. here's to burnout recovery
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living alone diaries: grinding in my 20's ended with addiction to stress. here's to burnout recovery
living alone diaries: neutral, cozy bedroom decor, solo matcha date and showing up for myself daily
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living alone diaries: neutral, cozy bedroom decor, solo matcha date and showing up for myself daily
living alone diaries: finally shopping for myself, fall capsule wardrobe and pilates brings me joy
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living alone diaries: finally shopping for myself, fall capsule wardrobe and pilates brings me joy
living alone diaries: living my twenties at my own pace and it's ok if i choose slow & easy
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living alone diaries: living my twenties at my own pace and it's ok if i choose slow & easy
living alone diaries: the twenty-somethings are burnt out, but life doesn't stop. keep going
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living alone diaries: the twenty-somethings are burnt out, but life doesn't stop. keep going
living alone diaries: making friends as an adult is difficult, building my closet and girls' date
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living alone diaries: making friends as an adult is difficult, building my closet and girls' date
living alone diaries: connecting to my spirituality, brown sugar matcha latte recipe, house plants
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living alone diaries: connecting to my spirituality, brown sugar matcha latte recipe, house plants
living alone diaries: morning jazz showers, neutral european bedding, gym girl era and wine party
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living alone diaries: morning jazz showers, neutral european bedding, gym girl era and wine party
living alone diaries: enjoying my solitude, neutral, cozy living room aesthetic and settling in
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living alone diaries: enjoying my solitude, neutral, cozy living room aesthetic and settling in
living alone diaries: moving to a new city can feel lonely, but my nervous system feels calm here
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living alone diaries: moving to a new city can feel lonely, but my nervous system feels calm here
living alone diaries: i finally left los angeles and it's what i needed for my mental health
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living alone diaries: i finally left los angeles and it's what i needed for my mental health
living alone diaries: slowly feeling like myself again and deep cleaning for my mental health
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living alone diaries: slowly feeling like myself again and deep cleaning for my mental health
living alone diaries: have no expectations when dating, apartment hunting and moving to ATL?
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living alone diaries: have no expectations when dating, apartment hunting and moving to ATL?
I do not like living alone anymore, I've reached an expiration date. I've been a loner pretty much all of life and have exhausted time by myself. Grief is complex in so many ways because there are so many forms of it. I'm glad that this video was posted. Thank you❤ First time watching, cute home!
This was such a beautiful vlog to watch. Appreciate the time you take to put together these gorgeous visuals for us 💕
Love this so much. Amazing vlog sis
I absolutely love your channel. You live the life I wanted to live when I was in my twenties and thirties. Kudos to you for prioritizing you.
I’m waiting to hear the good news 😮about poo 💩
Too consumerist, too curated.
Community service is a good way to get over grief. Thinking about others and not ones self is a great way to connect with the universal spirit that keeps us from feeling alone. We are all spirit and we will be reunited. 💛🙏🏽
Feel the peace that we have.
Thank you Amani. Simply, thank you for what has helped me so much.
Girl why you washing with your hands 😅
I agree! I’m 29 and I do everything solo, travel, vacation, dinner dates all of that. I want someone to want me too but I refuse to settle. Thank you for being vulnerable to post this !
I agree! I’m 29 and I do everything solo, travel, vacation, dinner dates all of that. I want someone to want me too but I refuse to settle. Thank you for being vulnerable to post this !
What type of shower cap is that? Where did you get it from?
I get to live alone part time in opulent spaces when I am on duty as a flight attendant. I really value and appreciate those days because I’m able to nurture and heal the traumatized little girl and young woman in me that still is overcome with grief. I can’t even acknowledge her when I am home because I am the sole provider of 4 beautiful children. I love that I came across your page. I imagine my children having a beautiful home and life like yours once they become adults and spread their wings!
A little bit of living alone is wonderful, therapeutic even ,a lot of it is can be scarily lonely,then if you can push through it becomes normal and company becomes both a dream and a pain but not a reality.I was always scared to reach that last stage where I can stand nothing but my own company and lose all patience for people.Effectively becoming a hermit because I came close but things outside my circumstances pulled me out.
Good day, logging in from the Caribbean where are you girl I miss you, come on girl lets do this thing, need the vlogs ☺☺☺☺☺
GLORY!!!!'m favoured, $140K every 3weeks! And am retired i can now give back to the locals in my community and also support God's work and the church. God bless America
That's great! I'm motivated too! How can we achieve this challenge?
No specific one really, because there are lots of investment plans and strategies littered all over the internet today, for instance, investments like real estates,gold, drop shipping crypto currency and lots more
Warren T. Sonia is an amazing tutor for crypto. Highly recommended! She’s been my Tutor and Mentor for past solid 8years!
F. A. C. E. B. O. O. K.
F a c e b o o k 👇
Honestly, You seems like a nice person, but to me , your body is too big, you really need loose so weight, wats up with the false nails, etc, etc, keep it real all the time girl, watching from Jamaica west Indies !!.
I love the transparency of this video. Thank you for being vulnerable with us.
Great skin complexion. You always look sunkissed 😊
I love 💕 your video show I also living alone by myself and to be honest I love and enjoy living alone by myself. I have peace in my life.😊😇🌹💕❤️
Your vlog was set up so beautifully.
Yesssssssss MOST DIFFICULT, IT HAS been 7 months for me, just leaves you so lonely!!!
"Grief is just love with nowhere to go"
Wow! Never thought of this way. Thanks!
I resonate with this so much. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. It helps me feel not so alone. I recently lost my Mum and life is so different without her. It truly is challenging. But we keep pushing through and finding the beauty in everyday life.
All so true!
Too much makeup and people remember the makeup. Less makeup and people will remember the woman🥰
I like it here🤍
Nothing is too good for us anymore ❤🎉
I grieved way too long - 20 years - living alone and being antisocial - my animals, garden, home and memories were all I focused on. Now I'm facing growing old alone and it's not the same. Don't let grief deprive you of a whole life. Peace.
It's not too late Elizabeth~ Travel!!
@@sylviacarlson3561 Thank you for the encouragement!
When were you diagnosed with ASPD?
Love it ❤️❤️. Is it renter approval? I want to get this into my apartment
Grief 😢 is the price we pay for love ❤
Absolutely! thank you
Plantation BlackStrap Molasses ok
No cane SuGAR Molases ok instead
Just moved into my apartment but oh myy 😍😍😍 finding this video has given me soo many ideas for my apartment and the upgrade
I am first time ,new to your channel. I could cry because this is how I viewed my life 40 years ago. I would always go left when God would tell me to go right. Alway listen when he speaks. Always be honest ,no matter what. I promise you won't have any regrets. God Bless this channel
The finger nails are scary.
Yes yellow looks amazing on you! Tip for your eating clean, I saw you just started dinner at 8:22pm eating that late is not good for sleep always a good idea to eat dinner early 4-5pm
Hope you’re doing well. Been some weeks since you’ve popped up on my suggestions
I live alone I love it Peace.
I am so loving your channel. I can relate to you and I am 53 yrs old. I am a caregiver. I work all of the time and I do not take care of myself. I am in a new state and a new house by myself. I am concerned about my mental state also. I cry all of the time. So you are not alone.
Thank you so! much for sharing. It’s kinda weird! For me! About what you said about how you feel about your mom! Unfortunately! Our children! Can being healthy! Can be totally! Disrupted! and damaged! From when we as parents make a habit of making poor parenting choices or just a plain absent mentality,physically! On the flip! side, you may not believe this but! Our young adult children! (Even our teens!) Can do some seriously! TRAUMATIZING! Things to their parents! Too, and can Knowingly! perfectly well what they are doing to the parents! But in American society! we often give children a pass! And in most! Cases we SHOULD! With That being said, please do not! Think that I am at ALL eluding that, that is the case with you! What I am! saying is that I could 100% feel my! Anxiety and emotions began to weigh heavily on me! Because I COULD RELATE! With every single word, the only! differences it was happening to me! the mother! And my daughter! 23 yr. Is the one Inflicting my pain! Because We use to be SUPER TIGHT! It really hurts! Because I’ve always dreamed that one day I would be that lucky! Mom because my kid thinks great! Of me! And Although I’m mom! I’m a good friend! As well! And for a long! Long! time we were! By the time she hit 19 (which she’s 23 NOW! these years of her behavior! has completely shattered my heart! We was once so so! very close BUT NOW! she treats me like a total enemy! and has even said that “I hate you! “I never in my wildest dreams would’ve thought that she would treat me that way or that we’d be where we are today! But we are! working on it in counseling! Which was MY! suggestion and she was willing to participate! with that being said, I truly hope! that things are now better for you and your mom‘s relationship. Always remember that people change for the good and sometimes bad! But this life is super short! And time apart, you can’t get back! But sometimes time apart! Can also bring you closer! I can’t encourage counseling enough, it’s good! If both parties are willing to put the work in together! And separately! As well.
New subbie. Love everything about this!
I ❤ this, it looks really pretty and laid back and comforting 😍. Very inspiring. Thanks for sharing with us.
16:52 sza is that you ❤
I can relate to the moving when stuff ain't hitting like it's supposed to.
I'm so happy for you 🌹
Hello 👋🏽 can you tell me the name of that pizza place looks delicious I enjoy your videos 🫶🏽